Saturday, May 14, 2005
im so bored now..haix..still pretty upset n irritated tt i cant go out wif baby 2day..its so obvious y they dun let mi out..they noe im angry lo..but..haix.. so irritatin..!! mornin woke up didnt haf a gd mood..was feelin sad..haix..n mayb a lil afraid.. den i didnt haf e mood 2 study..mum was there naggin..pls lo..i haf feelins..i cant go out 2day n u tink i haf e mood 2 study?! sometimes im so tired of all dis..of facing my parents.. of facing my prob n fears.. but i haf 2 admit i nv did faced or conquered my fears..i nv dared 2 go up 2 my parents n tell them how i reali felt..once i tried but it went wrong n it hurt mi more cos i heard things which i didnt noe till tt day..i dun wan to do it again... e communication is always broken..
they say wan bring mi go out lata 2 buy my stuff..wat e hell..!! i haf totally no mood 2 shop lo den now they force mi out wif them..haix.. i rather pei my baby dearest lo.. i dun wan 2 make a wasted trip get it?! argh..i told them yest i dun wan 2 go de lo..haix.. y? y? y?! Y cant they listen 2 mi?! im a human.. cant they oso respect my decisions?! or m i still 2 young 2 them? pls im turnin 17..!!! i need a life..!! haix..they say they been thru wat im gg thru.. but how can they say dis n still doin wat their parents did..n how can they make mi feel hurt? is dis wat they call e best 4 mi? 2 feel pain?! they juz dun trust mi..mayb cos i lied 2 many times but still... haix..i so frustrated n they wan mi 2 go out wif them soon..!! argh..!! y so i always feel tt its my duty 2 follow wat ppl say?! im so sick n tired of it le..!!!
nw tryin 2 do excel hw..haha..quite chim sia..dun reali noe wat they askin..haha..nvm.. muz do it..den 2nite muz stay up study le arx..if not i sure die in all my ICAs..esp my marketin de.. oh man..
HAPPY ANNI BABY DEAREST.. sori i hurt u again n again..thx 4 forgiving mi n understandin mi again n again..i realised i cant stop loving you and cant live without you... though it's tiring n painful..im willing 2 go thru all of it 2 b wif you... cos i believe u wun let mi down n will stay by my side takin care of mi... even if e whole is against us.. i'll still stand by ur side... i promise you...
thinking of you @ 2:19 PM